Chemo and the End of the Year...

"December 7, 2021: It’s been so long since I have journaled. My skin is really affected from the radiation and the dark pieces are all peeling off. It’s pretty painful but the doctor gave me Silvadene which has been helping. Today was my last day of radiation!! I finally got to ring the bell! I am so so happy. I also finally broke the news and posted my video ringing the bell and informed everyone on the battle I’ve kept from almost everyone. It was very emotional and my medical team has been beyond exceptional. I am going to miss seeing everyone everyday because I just loved being around them. I am also really glad I kept this battle private. It allowed me to really have control and process everything before people knew. I am just so happy for the hardest part of this battle to be over. I know I have a long road ahead but I finally see the light at the end of this tunnel!

December 14, 2021: I started the Tamoxifen today. I have noticed shocks in my boob but I know that’s just the nerves. My skin is starting to heal up. Today was the first day the portion on my armpit/back didn’t burn like crazy. I’m also starting to eat again which is so nice but also, so shitty. Literally hahah. I just cant stop pooping now. The first burp and fart felt amazing too. Almost forgot my body did those things. I’m excited to cook tonight too. I’m going to make chicken kabobs and I have the garlic sauce from Trader Joe’s. I have been craving this since I got sick. I hope I still love it!

December 18, 2021: I cuddled with Marley a lot today. Boy do I love him more than life itself. While we were on our evening walk I just reflected on all of the insane life moments he has been there for and saved me from: rape, Grandma Fran dying, Dad dying, drugs, losing the house, moving to an apartment, moving across the country, Breast Cancer. And then I reflected on how tough they must have all been on him. I know with my Cancer journey the weeks I was down he paced, couldn’t rest, had an upset tummy, heavy breathing. It really got to him. He doesn’t know he has saved my life so many times. He is my true angel. Also, I did officially start my period and boy am I exhausted. I slept almost the entire day. I forced myself to go to Walmart this morning and I was so worn out from it that I came home and went to sleep. "